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setfree299
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| 12/28/2009 10:23 PM |
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| I have been a Christian since 1999. I used to lead worship at a church in Sunnyvale, Ca. I also was one of the original founders of the church. 4 years ago i had finally got to the point where i was happy with who God made me to be and had joy like never before. My now husband was a good friend in ministry with me for over 2 years.
I have been married for 3 1/2 years to my 3rd husband! (His 4th marriage) Our entire marriage has been complete turmoil. Not kidding, on our honeymoon he said he wanted an annulment. We were separated for two months in the beginning of the year. He has had many internet relationships with women over the last years and has even had one in person relationship. He told all of them that he married me out of pity for my kids and didn't really want to be with me. He has been active in porn and drugs in the past year, to the extent that he was arrested earlier this year and is awaiting sentencing. I bailed him out of jail after a couple weeks (still not sure if God really wanted me to or if it was my feelings of sympathy). Since then he says he has been delivered and healed from everything and that God has given him divine revelation of the Word! He has written one book and is starting on another. He says that its all about Agape, to God and then others. I happen to think this makes a lot of sense. The problem i have is he doesn't practice it with me. Every day of my life is filled with text messages from him telling me to repent, confess, quoting scriptures, he often tells me how much i fail as a wife and that I am not truly saved and that i have never been a Christian. These are just basic examples, there is more and worse. Well, he now wants to leave me because i am such a horrible wife and i do not obey God and His Word in all i do and he says i am basically going to burn in hell. I used to drink quite a bit. I quit for 1 1/2 years during our marriage because it really just made matters worse. I have recently, 20 days ago, given over drinking to the Lord and been in daily prayer and devotions, going to bible studies and church 4 days a week to keep myself around positive influences, to get back where i need to be with God and try to make new Christian friends in a new town. When i started all this we had two really awesome days, then his attacks have became harder and more numerous. Not believing i have quit drinking, not believing that God means everything to me, not believing that i'm in prayer or in the word, etc. etc. Help! Anyone! Please tell me what i should do. I appreciate any prayers and/or advice you can give. Thank you so much and God bless! |
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JoeMS
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| 01/11/2010 3:25 PM |
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Wow, that's quite a story. I don't have much for you but you should keep an eye on his Internet use. He should allow you to set the password on his computer's content filter (Safe Eyes, K9, etc).
Consider this meditation on the raising of Lazarus from the dead.
[Lazarus risen but needs to be un bound]
Another thought from recent meditations: When Jesus made Lazarus to rise from the tomb, Restoration to Life ...happened immediately. Jesus then commanded Lazarus to "Come Out," a command anyone in recovery has heard and is trying to obey. But there was a problem. Lazarus was still wrapped in the grave clothes, the trappings of death. Jesus did not remove those. He directed the disciples and others to help Lazarus unwind them. We need help, all of us, whether addicts or just plain sinners. The trappings of death are the habits, the faulty beliefs, the poor choices that could and so often do pull us right back into something we've just been set free from. Thanks to all of YOU for helping to unwind my shrouding!!
Post by TrustnHIM on October 21st, 2009,
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